It was a very emotional moment for both of us. He’s a boy, this was probably his last time having a very thick and straight long hair. It wasn’t my first time dealing this, this is not his first long hair being cut. In fact I’ve faced it too many times but I’m a cry mama. I cry at small things. I can’t help it.

Goodbye to his one year plus long hair! Last haircut he had when he was 25 months old (excluding the fringe, too many times).

I love the colour, very mustardy looking. No I don’t support Bersih FYI.

I love love love it because I bought it at a bargain from a cute brand. Kalau takde sale, I wouldn’t bought it because it was exy.

When Adrian born, I didn’t get to see his meconium because of his history so I didn’t really have a choice. So it’s A OKAY. I have nothing against it. Now that after I gave birth to Hana, I waited for Hana to pass her first stool, the meconium. I wanted to be the first to witness it. Since it was her first stool, there’s no smell so I forgot to change her nappy. Midwife came into my room and asked me to change my pad and since she need to record how much blood lost I had. I went in without fuss. I really don’t know that she willingly help me change Hana’s nappy. It is her work after all, she had to see how wet Hana’s nappy is.

When I came out from the toilet I saw her changing Hana’s nappy with the meconium. Yes Hana’s first stool. I was shocked! I’m the one supposed to do that cleaning stuff. I want to be there for Hana. I want to witness it, I want to clean it, I want to take picture of it. Call me crazy but hell yes, I want to record it in my phone.

It’s my first time seeing it. I feel like crying my whole heart out. Tak semua orang akan faham hal ni. Orang sure cakap, it is just a stool for god sake! You don’t go through what I went through, I don’t think you have the right to say anything.

Adrian got a new bike since the trike he had doesn’t really suits him now. We wanted Hana to use the trike since she love it so much. Adrian on the other hand couldn’t stop thinking about his bike 24-7. So dear hubby would always let him ride after he got back from work. He’s still learning to control it, it requires more energy to push the paddle so he’s coping very well. So I can’t possibly let him ride under my care while pushing Hana in the stroller. Memang kena tunggu daddy balik je.

Now that I’m old(er), teringin nak tengok cerita2 ni balik. The Sound of Music bersepah jual or senang je nak download but this Alice in Wonderland movies susah nak cari. Susah juga nak cari mula2, but as you know, the world is at my fingertips, if I want it, I’ll search high and low.

P/s: semalam GE13 dkt Msia. It’s my second time living abroad since last GE. Congratulations BN! <3

Last Sunday on the 28th, while I was busy preparing his dinner, he came to me asking for dinosaur (chicken nugget), I said no dah finish. He then asked for fries, I said no as well sebab nak dia makan a proper meal kan. Dia minta dua benda tu and I replied finish je, tu yang for the first time he said nak nasi. And makan tanpa banyak songeh too! This is something big. He finally asked for it and actually don’t mind eating it. Tanpa kena paksa or marah. Alhamdulillah. Today’s dinner, he asked for nasi again. I AM SO HAPPY beyond words.

Anyway, I made a video on our recent holiday. I always make one for our memories’ sake.

P/s: the songs in all of my videos takde kena mengena dengan siapa2 or apa2. I simply put it up based on lagu yang tengah hit time tu or usually lagu tu asyik sangat la dengar time holiday tu. I like to put it up that way, so I can remember during that time lagu apa tengah hit.

P/s: we found so many hidden treasures!

She has 4 teeths now. Both lower and upper incisor. She had her lower before we went for holiday right. And she had her upper on the 8th of April (well, that’s the date I realized she’s having it). Sebab Hana ni kalau teething, she doesn’t go cranky and moody, instead she goes all hyper and unsettle (to sleep la). Memang la penat nak jaga sebab dia bangun tengah malam, but I’m thankful dia bangun pun dia still happy & nak main je keja. Unlike some baby cranky habis kan. Like I told you, semua la dia sebiji like her abang. Her abang also tak cranky time teething. So I don’t really know the meaning of cranky baby bila teething.

Hana likes to play abang’s toys, not her’s. Hana like to talk a lot now. Macam menjawab apa kita cakap pun ada. She still doesn’t eat much, especially bila dia tak suka that particularly food, dia memang makan sikit je la.

Abang on the other hand, his “taknak” phase still ada but manageable. Tak sepening macam balik KL aritu. His eating, still have to force him. Cuma kalau nak senang dia makan, let him spoon himself.

Dalam banyak2 kali balik, I seriously think balik kali ni paling tension. Adrian is his phase yang mana semua dia taknak buat. If he says taknak, taknak la. I just don’t get it why. Sometimes aku rasa ada je setan2 tak puas hati ni. Ok I don’t blame them. It’s his phase. I’m sure he’ll get over it sooner or later. Some people just don’t get it so I think it’s better for us not to go back that often. Maybe Adrian cranky banyak pun sebab weather and new places. He had fever 3 times masa balik tu, kire once a week kena. Hana kena sekali je. Tak pernah2 Adrian balik & demam. So I think this muat be something big for him to adapt.

We went to USS and Legoland. Doesn’t get to meet my friends sebab atas hal tertentu. Hana had her cukur jambul. We had our family photoshoot after 13 years so ni memang pening and FUN. Bila dah habis memang fun la sebab tengok gelagat all the kids. Pening tu dalam 20% je la, the rest memang fun sebab ada kids ni. Serious la, ada kids dalam family boleh buat family jadi fun. If you don’t have kids, I’m sure you don’t get it kan.

Dalam happy2 balik, hati ni still sedih sebab around the same time last year I get to go to Nenek’s and borak2 with her. And now, takde sape pun lagi at her place. The place where I spent my childhood. It’s a small place but I loved it. I sleep there, I went jalan2 with them, I sleep with them. It’s like my memory stops macam tu. Atuk & Nenek dah takde, macam tak percaya!!