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When I had my 32w checkup last week, gynae asked me am I comfortable to go ahead with normal delivery or not and what is my wish; I told her right away I want normal delivery. And for that she said I’ve to be extra careful this time with the pushing and all. We don’t want any tearing to happen again, don’t we. They’ll be putting iv drips or whatever they call them right after birth to monitor me (I guess).

So that’s about it. Everything is now goes according to plan. Alhamdulillah.

This is how my very first born, my boy, my prince used to look like when he was still a baby. He is still a baby to me until now. But his skin has cleared up now, a lot. An even the dermatologist is surprised looking at how beautiful his skin has become.

It’s hard being a first time mum, alone in here dealing with all these. I do have my breaking point some time. But I’m glad hubby is around to help me, to snapped me up so that I realized I’m not the only one suffering in this world. He got the point.

Anyway, Adrian had his dermatologist appointment last Wednesday at PMH (as usual). Doctor said the eczema is still there since it’s in his gene but it’s not an active ones so I just have to keep apply him the moisturizer and all. He doesn’t need the steroid cream any more and I’m glad I’ve stop using it a long time ago. I’m the one currently been using his steroid cream on me since you know how I look like when I’m pregnant.

Adrian sekarang ni kan terlalu banyak sangat benda yang dia dah improve, from his speech to everything (except his appetite that is). He’s very demanding. Very! He hates wearing long sleeve top, sweater, jacket/coat, sleeping bag, blanket. Socks, sometimes he will wear it but it won’t last forever on his feet. I seriously don’t know how he can stand the coldness, the cold tiles. Grrr. He’s very clingy too! He won’t sleep without me around.

When it comes to his speech, I say, it has become easier talking to him these days. He understand you. He’ll respond back some time but not to everyone. He’ll point out to the things he wants if he doesn’t know how to say it. He loves learning ABC and 123. He taught me to play his iPad/iPhone games. And we’re changing his nappy size, one size bigger this time since he is a 12kg tot.

I don’t know whether he understood the meaning of baby yet tapi tiap kali I ask him to kiss baby, he’ll instantly kiss my tummy. With him, you gotta be extra careful these days. Budak at this age, doesn’t care if he kicks or sit on my tummy. You have to keep telling him not to and why he cannot do so. Uuh, he loves dancing! Bila lah aku nak start ajar dia mengaji ni. He knows “Amin” and macam mana nak ambil air sembahyang. That’s a start kan.

A month plus until adik baby is born and I don’t know how Adrian will react to her. Deep down, I know Adrian akan merajuk sikit sikit. You know what my baby boy, Adrian will always be the prince of my heart, sampai jannah. Of course Adrian kena share the love I’ve for you with adik baby tapi Adrian tau kan, mummy will always love you; no matter what! Kita hidup as one small family in here, loving each other sampai bila bila.

I had quite a few bleeding right after my 27 week appointment, right after I got back from Malaysia. I didn’t even know it was my blood. So I figured it’s nothing except when hubby freaked out when he saw it and the fact that I told him nothing about it. I told ya, I thought it must’ve been my bowel had opened unintentionally without me realizing it. I was torn every now and then about the tear I had last time. I blamed everything on it just to keep myself sane.

Anyway, she had me giggled there straight away, of course in my mind. I am not very slim nor included in the slim range. I am just average. Not too slim, not too fat. There!

The appointment was in the morning and we had to come back at 2 for the ultrasound which I’m not very fond of because I had to go alone. Hubby stayed back in the car watching Adrian, sleeping. The sonographer was a guy, that makes me even not wanting to do so. At least I think he’s a guy with a thick beard and a bulgy tummy like me but with a soft women’s voice (ok I forgot what his name was).

Adik baby is perfectly fine and healthy. She weighed about 1597 grams, no breech, the placenta has moving up and that’s it. She’s a growing pretty bun in there! My smoochie lil princess. Eeeeee I’m excited!

As you all knew, we stayed overnight in Geraldton. Esok pagi tu round2 around Geraldton je. By noon memang kitaorang dah gerak balik Perth. We had our morning picnic at the nearest beach, around the city (I guess).

Adrian on the other hand doesn’t make any trouble at all except the part where he doesn’t wanna sit on his car seat. Itu sampai menjerit macam mana pun, kalau dia taknak, dia taknak nye. The aunties banyak look after him as well, layan dia main his iPad/iPhone.

We reached Perth by 6-7ish at night and straight away pergi makan dinner at Batavia.

Itu je la cerita nye, nak cerita apa lagi.

P/s: malas nak upload pics. Kalau Adrian dah besar nak tengok all the pics, dia boleh search through my archive sendiri hehe

My tummy has obviously shouting to the whole world “I’m Pregnant!” and my, i’ve been received lots of comments. From a 2D pictures, i get people saying how huge my tummy is and they have a small one. Bila tengok live, i get comments saying how tiny my bump is. That’s exactly how Adrian and i get commented these days. Adrian macam biasa la orang comment dia nampak so big and grown dekat gambar, depan2 they’ll say he’s so tiny. So you get my point, a picture worth a thousand words. What you see isn’t always what you get. Even hubby said my tummy is rather small compare with Adrian last time. I precisely doesn’t know how to measure how big and how small the bump is. Serious.

I didn’t gain weight much this time, so that explain why people say my bun isn’t as big as in the pictures. But this doesn’t concern me much since Gynae doesn’t mention a thing. The sonographer told me, the baby’s size is PERFECT. She is growing healthily like the rest. So i’ve the conclusion, i’ve lost weight during this second pregnancy but since the baby is growing everyday, the weight lost i had memang tak nampak la kan bila dah numbers to keep gaining je.

For the past 2-3 weeks, a few days after i got back from Malaysia, I’ve had some bleeding (i presumed). I tell hubby nothing about this until he saw it himself. He went crazy asking why i didn’t tell him. It’s not that i don’t want to; I’ve this mixed feeling whether is it really my blood or i had my bowel open without i realising it (I’ve been so scared lately about the tear i had last time). My mind was telling me it’s not blood, my bowel had open unintentionally because of the loose muscle because of the tear. The first second bleeding (i assumed again), was like a clog, a big clog. And it happened again few days later, 2-3 spotting. This happened for 2-3 weeks. I gave midwife a call yesterday morning as hubby was so worried. The midwife sounds so calm that i knew, this is nothing. Since baby is moving just fine (more than 10 kicks a day), midwife told me not to worry. If the bleeding do happen again, and in fact comes in clogS or large amount than i should be worry, then I’ve to ring them again and i might have to go to the hospital right away. I don’t know where the blood came from for god sake! When i saw it, benda day dry, how should i know where it came from. I am so tired with all these questions. I just wanna lay down and rest.

I assumed again, maybe i bled, maybe the bleeding came from a massive jalan2 i had. Jalan tu satu hal, lepas tu jaga budak lagi kan. Or maybe the bleeding came from the low placenta i had. Tapi hari tu sonographer told my placenta is moving up but i don’t know how high dah masa tu.

I am fine. I do not feel sick at all. I’m alright people.

We made a quick, surprise decision to follow Myra & Alyssa to their road trips. It was so sudden, that i made the hotel reservation a day before we checkin. Sebab mula2 cari hotel/b&b/chalet/motel etc tak jumpa yang ada vacancy; they were all full when i called them although defat website tunjuk ada vacancy. But i made the reservation online anyway, just trying  my luck and fortunately, luck is on our side that day. Maybe sebab hubby day few times cakap nak bring us to our so-called babymoon, tu tuhan pun tolong. Ala, bukan baby moon gempak2 pun, or stay dekat inn mahal2 pun. Well i don’t care mahal ke tak, as long as the 3 of us could get away for the weekend.

We went out early in the morning on the 6th of April, by 8am memang dah ada in front of Myra’s house to fetch them, pergi satu kereta.

Our first pit stop was Lancelin. Adrian macam bias takut/geli pasir. He wouldn’t dare to get down, memang hubby je la yang carry him. It was cold and windy and we’re the smart aleck tak pakai sweater ke apa. We didn’t do any sand boarding sebab i was pregnant, hubby’s carrying adrian and the two girls takleh nak slide with their sled ke whatever they call them (because that’s what i knew they called them back in the States). Did i tell you masa dekat Lancelin, our car, our Odyssey stuck dalam pasir. haha. It was embarrassing sebab semua orang tengok. But some of the people there were kind enough to help hubby push the car. God bless them!

Lepas Lancelin, we headed to Pinnacles Dessert. Dekat situ amik2 gambar je la, nak buat apa lagi kan. And lepas tu terus ke Geraldton and we reached there somewhere around 4-5 pm agaknya. We stayed there overnight. Tu la baby moon yang special nya, haha. Just like i said, tidur dekat hutan pun i don’t mind untuk our baby moon as long as we stick together, the 3 of us.

I’ll get back to this road trip again later. Need to do house chores yang lebih penting.

Alhamdulillah both mummy and adik baby is doing just fine. We’re doing so fine that I feel I wanna keep this bun in the oven longer that I should.

Believe it or not, apa yang kena masa pregnantkan Adrian dulu, sekarang ni alhamdulillah tak ada. No back pain, no cramps, no severe itching, no constant feels of hungry, no constant urge to go to the loo, no swollen feet (except the one I had when I was in Penang & Taiping due to the massive jalan2). Banyak lah no lagi and I do feel great!

Memanglah from time to time tu cepat rasa penat & mengah, that’s normal. Uuh another one, no heartburn.

Adik baby on the other hand is responding well to her abang. It’s like they’re playing with each other eventho sorang dekat luar, sorang dekat dalam. Adrian sangatlah abang yang penyayang, he likes to kiss his dear adik baby. Sangat awwww kan!

I feel like I’m not pregnant at all apart from the bulgy tummy. Tak rasa pregnant sebab I feel so great. Tu la lain pregnant, lain experience nya.

Syukur ke hadrat Illahi sebab kurangkan rasa sakit ni semua sebab He knows, I’ve a tot to look after sambil pregnant ni.

P/s: at 27 week I’m still wearing my pre-pregnancy jeans (with the help of the belly belt). I haven’t touch my pregnant jeans at all (ok I touched once pastu dah tak pakai sebab time tu bila pakai still longgar).

I want this creamy coat wore by Spencer Hasting in Pretty Little Liars S02E25. Cantik kan! Been googling searching about it tapi still tak jumpa. On this finale episode, yang diaorang focused on the Spencer’s masquarade party dress.

p/s: Of all the 4 girls, i like her fashion more!

Adik baby yang smart responded his shooting with a kick ok! Now that’s brother and sister bonding haha.

Tapi soon after that Adrian kisses my tummy just to tell his sister yang tadi tembak main2 je. Aren’t they both so cute!