… of sleeping together
… of eating together
… riding in a car together
… feeling whole as a family
… watching V8 Super race together
i miss having him on my bed
i miss feeding him on my bed
i miss kissing him on my bed
i miss snuggle with him on my bed
i miss putting him to bed on my bed
i miss patting his back on my bed
i miss waking up in the middle of the night on my bed
i miss changing his nappy on my bed
i miss everything about him
p/s: Adrian’s admitted to ward again this morning. He’s been vomiting greenish mucus since last night and didn’t bother to eat at all, even if he does, he’ll throw it out eventually. He lost weight again too from 3.34 kg to 3.270 kg. He’s just so tiny and so fragile. I wanna cry, i wanna cry so badly. It’s tough having to suffer this on our own at this very strange land. It feels like we’re so alone here. Rif told me to keep up my strength for him because i knew myself too much, i am not that strong.
